In the valley of despair…
April 28th, 2009 . by FredAKA “fiddling while rome burns…”
When you work on promoting Appleseed, you quickly get an eyeful of what modern American gun owners and gun clubs are like.
Far from seeing Appleseed welcomed as a potential program that can get thousands of new people into shooting - and now, what’s more, with the track record to prove it - you run into a wall of hostile ignorance, hostile apathy, and hostile laziness. With the ‘hostile’ sometimes greater, sometimes less, but generally present as a persistent undercurrent.
Man, you lose your idealism fast!
Being an Appleseed missionary is a lonely, heart-breaking, frustrating, depressing activity, sometimes ‘made up for’ with a big break - you actually find an American who’s not pickled in his own ignorance, laziness, apathy - and arrogance. Sometimes you even find a gun club not run by people high on their own power…
Here’s an example for you of an email I recently received, about a potentially great AS location at a club which shall remained unnamed, in a state which shall remain unnamed:
“… I had a chance to talk extensively to the Club Safety guy and also the Rifle Chairman/VP. I think the Rifle Chairman is happy with our Procedures, and I think the Safety guy is happy with our attention to safety. The next step in the process of gaining access to the club is to send a formal request to brief the Board of Directors. This will need to be a somewhat formal stand up briefing, and one thing that we MUST address is “what is in it for them”. I am pretty sure the chairmen of other disciplines within the club will not be overwhelming supportive and I am sure that any effort to encourage them with a “good for membership” effort will fail. I was told very bluntly that, “this is a very exclusive club, the membership is expensive and we have always had a waiting list. We do not want new members!”
“I was also told equally bluntly that the various disciplines within the club already do not get along so “why should they help you?” On a somewhat brighter note I was also led to believe that after formal briefing to the Board of Directors we would most likely have their answer immediately.”
There you go: “What’s in it for them?”
Is there no room for the Cause to be “in it for them”? Guess not.
And what a spectacle: A bunch of boorish ignorant dopes infighting among themselves, so why would they want to help anyone else?
On the deck of a sinking ship?
Guess you could say, “real smart” - right?
Is this a classic definition of fiddling while Rome burns - or what?
Here I have to censor my response to my correspondant:
“My gut reaction is that we can locate a piece of land, buy it, and set up a range quicker than we can get thru to these limp-wristed, in-fighting, “what’s in it for me” arrogant [bleep]-heads.
“But you prob want a more reasoned, calm reaction, right?
“You are the guy on the ground. And I leave it to your judgement.
“These people have already sent [us] a message: they don’t want new members, they don’t like each other and/or any other new or different shooting discipline.
“Plus they love to have people come crawling on their knees, simply so they have the self-gratification ego-stroking of being able to say “No”. Oops, slipped up and got a little emotional again…
“Regardless, we don’t have the time or manpower to put on a dog-and-pony show for these [bleep]-heads, unless you have the energy and motivation to do it.
“Hope none of the above discourages you. I am simply trying, on the basis of the info you provided, to indicate what I believe is the most rational course, based on my experience, and my knowledge of the priorities and shortages of our program.
“XYZ, I am sending this directly to you, so as to pass on my unvarnished opinion.
“As you can tell, I’m full-up with conceited [bleep]-birds who don’t give a rat’s ass about the Cause.
“So [I hope you will] forgive the bluntness, but appreciate the honesty, of my remarks.”
Just in case you think Fred is impervious to this stuff, here’s something I wrote shortly thereafter to someone in the program in response to his suggestion that “Fred may be able to help with XYZ problem”:
“I don’t know if Fred will be of any help, or not. I think he’s in his cave, trying to pull the entrance inside with him, where it can’t be seen - or found.
“I don’t know how you continue, to be honest.
“Did I copy you on my response to [the above email]? If not, maybe I should send you a copy. These Americans are not worth saving. Appleseed is an example of casting pearls before worthless swine…
“In a way, I hope the ship sinks while I’m around, so I can squeeze joy out of hearing the wails of those who’ll be saying, ‘Why didn’t someone warn me?’”
Three things out of this:
1. You are important as an individual. What you do is important. Because you have effects on things you don’t understand or realize. I call ‘em ripples. If you take action, other people who care, see you take action, and are heartened and energized. If you don’t take action, or take stupid/foolish action, other people are disheartened - and the Cause you supposedly espouse to is harmed.
2. As the perceiver of all the ignorance, laziness, apathy, and general foolishness in this country today, it’s very tough to maintain the grit and fortitude that working for the Cause entails. Very tough. It’s probable that what keeps me going thru the valley of despair is the fear that one day I may meet up with the Founders. On that day, I want to be able to look ‘em in the eye, and say, ‘I did all I could…’
A second thing that keeps me going is seeing others who care enough to do something. I don’t want to let those people down, and I don’t want to discourage them by letting them see me do nothing. Seeing them working gives me hope that somehow, some day, we’ll be able to save this country…
3. People in this country will not only fiddle while Rome burns, they will party. In fact, will worship the Golden Calf - as long as it has plasma, and is in front of a couch. If judgement is ever passed on this nation, I don’t want to be around when it is.
4. Appleseed, in case you don’t know, is the answer. Go to rwva.org to find out why. Any one will tell you: the best answer to depression and discouragement is action - and Appleseed is action!